It's gonna be a pain to get over though you know? God is with me, I know that this is what He wants... It's a good thing, it's the only thing. I was so scared out of my skin yesterday. I hadn't even decided this before we talked. Something had to push me over the edge of realisation and it was perfect.
I'm not even angry, I'm not sad, not regretful, not even alone. What am I then? I am content that I don't need to throw myself on my bed this time and cry, which is awesome because that really sucked. I feel stronger somehow, but very weak. I wonder how long it will last. I wonder what's in store for me. I know somehow that being "in" hindered me my walk with God. I don't wanna say it was worth it, but I don't regret. I learned so much. Plus, I think it was in God's plan anyways. Stuff doesn't happen if he doesn't let it. I hope he learned alot about the world
My world, my world.. Well here's the new plan of action for me all.. in a world where there's 'plenty of fish in the sea' I'm gonna do like Dory (finding nemo).. "Just keep swimming."
I can't wait to go to college. I can't wait to become. This whole thing has brought me here. I'm so psyched for life right now. Ugh, God thank you!
A shout out to my homies!
By the way last night I slept topless with my sister. I don't know what this has to do with anything. It's just a funny thing
She's hot, so what.
