I think I've done a big stupid. Nope, I know I have. I'm this kind of person who thinks you can hang with a guy and be friends. See crazy me. I am this kind of person who seems to go about things in the completely worst way possible and hurt the people I love in the process. I didn't want to think I might be wrong because I wanted to go and have fun, but I am so mad at myself right now. Well, no not mad. Disapointed I guess. Oh and I spelled that wrong.

How the hell do I manage to screw myself into oblivion all the damn time. I seriously am my own worst enemy, I don't get how I do this.

Going to bed in a daze again..

I knew this stupid journal thing was a mistake.

I'm sorry if I hurt you, I didn't mean to.